Love,
I want to say that it doesn't matter, that I'm moving on, that it was all just a game, a joke. That I never loved you, never wanted you, never, never. But it would be a lie.
yours
Author: Dragon
Love,
hold me, please. Let me forget all this pain for a moment. Hold me. Please.
yours
Love,
I know a day will come when I won't think of you. But it wasn't today, and it won't be tomorrow.
yours
Love,
I know that you care. In some way you even love me. I feel that. But I'll never be your choice. And sometimes that matters too much.
yours
Love,
even though I knew the truth, I kept hoping. Waiting. Waiting... for what never came.
yours
Love,
What more can I say? I'll never forget you.
But I'll do my best to get over you. Still,
yours
Love,
I miss you so much. How can I miss something that was never there? Yet... I do. I miss you terribly. I know it's only my imagination, I know it's a fabrication of my mind... yet... I do. I miss you.
yours
Love,
I understand it. I do. It is not meant. It is no more than a idea that should be hidden in the depths of my soul. Yet, Love, each day it emerges from within me, trying to reach you. And each night it dies.
yours
Love,
It was such a nice day. A couple was hugging and kissing and giggling. I am ashamed to admit I was jealous. Envious. I know it will not be me, like that, again... I wish I were.
yours
Love,
I saw a stranger today, and he reminded me of you. It is painful to know you'll never be as close to me as he was, standing in the same room.
yours
Love,
Will you miss me, when I'm gone? I miss you already.
yours
Love,
Do you love me?
yours
I said no
You said it’s love,
and I said no.
You said it’s closeness,
and I said no.
You said it’s marriage,
and I said no.
You said I want it,
and I said no.
You stopped talking,
and I stopped saying no,
it didn’t stop you anyway,
it just stopped my heart.
Alenka H., 2023
I miss you
Cold hands of emptiness
Are all that is hugging me
At night.
I try to imagine your kiss,
But the air is too still
And no heartbeat is near.
I look into darkness
And picture the touch
That would bring me alive.
My hand holds my hand
And I try to forget it.
I miss you so much.
Alenka H., 2021
Offering
There’s a price you must pay.
I said, yes, of course. I’ll give you my blood.
I don’t want your blood, she laughed.
I looked at her, wondering what more I could give. I’ll give you my soul, I offered.
Oh, my dear child, she smiled softly, your soul is already mine, and each tear you’ll pay with you’ll see: it’s not the cuts that sting, it’s the salty water that drops on them.
So I give her my tears, hoping that Goddess or Words will, once in eternity, smile to me.
Alenka H., 2022
I suppose
Yes, I suppose I’m quite naive.
But what could I do?
No, you never lied.
It was never your fault.
Yes, I tried to shield my heart,
but with each word you got more inside.
No, you never deceived me.
You never needed to.
Yes, I wanted too much.
More than we had.
No, I never thought I had a chance.
I just dreamed of our mornings.
Yes, I am quite foolish.
I wanted my lips to touch you as you touched my heart.
No, I don’t want to share this with you.
I could never survive you laughing at me.
Alenka H., 2023
Dreams
Dreams,
yes, sweet dreams,
but the sweetest of dreams
bring the most bitter morning,
after the warmest embrace
arms wake up longing.
Alenka H., 2023
Feel
Ssh, don’t open your eyes.
Just feel.
Feel my palm on your chest,
feel my lips on your neck.
Feel my tongue trailing down you body,
feel my hair on your stomach,
feel my hands on your thighs.
With eyes firmly shut
you can pretend it’s not me
and I can pretend
we’re making love.
Alenka H., 2022
Your words
Your words are so sweet,
but they taste so sour.
Your whispers so charming,
yet feeling so wrong.
You say that you love me,
no, darling, you don’t –
It’s just words you’re saying
with actions not worth.
Alenka H., 2023
Only a day
Our day was becoming a night.
I wanted to ask you to go on with me,
just one more hour,
just one more step,
one more embrace.
You left our train without saying a word,
and I whispered goodbye that will never be heard.
I’ve travelled so far,
only a day by your side.
The nights are much colder now.
And I dream of you.
Alenka H., 2022